Wednesday, December 10, 2008

Three Word Wednesday~Enemy, Shatter, Vague

If At First You Don't Succeed


Every year, I am required to see my doctor, to make sure all is well after that major operation two years ago. Usually, it's a simple check-up... we chat, some blood is drawn; you know, the basic tests that seem vague to the patient, and so very important to the medical team.

This time, his brow furrowed when he looked at my blood work, at the scans, at the long words in the reports that come with my disease, that enemy we'd taken on with radiation and nuclear meds, the treatment that rendered me weak and so very angry at my body that had betrayed me. In the end, after months of treatment, I'd come out on top, though, beating those rogue cells, coming out the winner, wallowing in my good health since.


"It's back." he said. "We are at square one." I sat, listening, my bubble of safety shattered...my realisation I was again on the path of hospital stays, drips, needles....drove me close to tears, shutting my eyes in order to seek the strength to nod my acceptance of what is, what will be... making myself ready to take this on one more time.


I'm ready to rumble.

17 comments:

ThomG said...

And we all rumble with you.
(for you.)

raino said...

Here's to strength. All the best to you! Fight, fight, fight.

Kelli Wedemeyer said...

I am sending you thoughts of strength and love. Anything you need just ask. You give me something every time I read your words. Take care, Kelli

Peter Varvel said...

Just to clarify: this is truth? Or fiction based on your truth?
Either way, ((HUGS)).

inflammatory writ said...

Rage, my darling, rage.

Huge hug coming your way.

Tumblewords: said...

Cheering for you as you rumble your way to another win!!

Bill From Gainesville said...

another fight. Champions have to take on the contenders ... otherwise it wouldnt be called life. You E-mail me now. tell me how I can help, what I can do?

austere said...

Well.

Better than writing terrorist based subs which is all I seem to do.

vinny said...

Your will is an inspiration for me.

Daily Panic said...

This is tragic. fight. Each day is a gift.

coastrat said...

Hugs and prayers and love...

Cormac Brown said...

Kick ass and make me five times more prouder than I already am of you.

Quin Browne said...

thanks.

much.

Prince Gomolvilas said...

Kick the shit out of it!

Mike Valentino said...

Kick it in its testicles!

Quin Browne said...

oh, my!

M as in Mint said...

Am rooting for you...kick ass indeed & get ready to celebrate another win.

Prayers & hugs..